First let me start off by saying it feels great to be back and into the swing of things. I was offline for a little while and have been unable to post as regularly as I have wanted to :(
So on to this weeks post. I didn't really care for the subtle mind exercise, nor did I enjoy it as much as the loving kindness one. I had a really hard time focusing and harnessing my thoughts whenever they began to wander. I also found it very difficult to relax and visualize, I think it's because the so called relaxation/nature sounds being used sounded more like "white noise" than peaceful and relaxing. Not to mention the speaker was starting to become annoying. I attempted to complete this meditation in the morning upon awakening, but found it even more nerve racking and unsettling. I ended up feeling very rushed and pressed for time, I was never able to fully relax. I eventually gave up on trying it again; however when and if ever I do attempt this particular exercise again, I will make sure that I play my own "relaxing" music and just guide myself through the meditation without the CD.
Don't worry I'm not giving up on meditation and relaxation techniques just yet. I am determined to find one that works and has the benefits I need.
The white noise was distracting and it actually scared me. At first I thought it was an issue with the cd, but it really was part of the exercise..
ReplyDeleteI actually liked this exercise better than the loving kindness because it had less steps. I did find it relaxing minus the white noise
I liked this exercise. The background noises weren't necessary. Usually I do my meditation in front of a candle or sometimes while lying in bed before I go to sleep. I'm glad that you're not giving up on meditating though. I've used a couple CDs that I didn't really like much, it just takes some trial and error to find something that works for you. I find that sometimes I just take a few seconds to slip into the silence and I feel much more centered. I can do this at a stop light in the car (I keep my eyes open), or even at work when I have a moment that I can breath without disruption.
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